New Love?

How can I know my love is true when I haven't dreamed of you yet?

I used to dream of another.
I told myself I loved him.
Looking back, I'm not so sure.
I remember when the dreams of him stopped.
I'm certain that he's nothing to me anymore.

But back when he was in my dreams,
things were different.
As they are now.

With these new things I'm feeling,
there is no regret, something I've felt every time in the past.
I've never felt this way before.

I wish to dream of you tonight.

~9/1/09 (3:05 am)
New Love?

Uncertain About what to Do

Major confusion is what i used to feel whenever i was around you.
I was always locked in the confusion.
When I first met you, you were the most amazing person in the world.
You still are.
If only you knew my real feelings.
Not just what I choose to let you see.
Nobody knows who I really am.
I've been too afraid to reveal myself to the light.
I've been too afraid of rejection.
I know that that would happen if I told you.
You're all I think about.
I don't want that to change.
But as I get to know you more, i start to realize
You would never go for me.

~9/1/09,
Feelings?